Journal #55 Shit just got really hard all of the sudden.

Well today is wednesday, and i can’t remember when the last time I’ve spend a wednesday alone. I really just wanted to come home and relax. Plus, I have so much shit to do with finals. And I need to cleann my room. Finals are really stressing me out. I really need to try hard these last few days of school. Mean while, last weekend I went back to Olney, and hung out with Chase. It was.. amazing. I guess the best memory of the whole weekend, was going out to the lake where we met almost 7 years ago at a softball game. We sat by the lake, and talked about everything that had to do with the way that we have aways felt about each other. I told him everything. And we have been really talking a lot since. Then the next night we stayed out until 2am sitting on a park bench, just talking more. We don’t know what were going to do yet about everything we have talked about. But I think he’s going to call tonight because this morning he said that we needed to talk but it was about something good. So I’m not sure whats going to go on. But I still have pancho, and even though were not really getting along right now, i still of course have feelings for him. God, I’ve never known what I would have done if this was going to happen. Pancho is my first boyfriend.. because back in olney, Chase kinda filled that void.. Ughh, ill write more tonight. But, I love Pancho still. </3.